I want a Future that I CREATE

The honest truth about society is that looks are EXTREMEMELY important.

We don’t want this to be a truth. We want people to see the “us” that lies within and screams for acceptance, but that isn’t the case. We can riot and scream about “fat-shaming” and “loving our size” all we want, but the world is a cruel place. The honest fact is that beauty, size, sex, and relationships are what make our society spin. We scream about acceptance, but we buy the magazines that have our favorite (hottest) celebrities on them. We take to the streets with words of malice against the social construct of beauty and “normal”, but we screech and cry over our favorite (hottest) actors and musicians when they have a new budding relationship with another person that society deems worthy. (Thiddles and Tswift anyone??)

What I suppose I am getting at is that some old adages are correct. “If you can’t beat them, join them.”

I have so many goals, aspirations and expectations of my future, and I do them all a disservice by not being the best me that I can be. I can think that I am the-bomb-dot-com, but first impressions are ridiculously important.

My goal is to be more.

More involved. More physically fit. More trendy.

I know that I have it in me to be amaze-balls, so that’s what I am going to do. For myself. I am the God of this temple, but I should also be the worshipper of this temple; willing to make the proper sacrifices to reap the greatest rewards. Right now, my goal is to go down fifty pounds. According to this app I have, (They have an app for that?!?!) that will occur in December. I will need support and understanding. Not only from others but from myself. I need to remember that it is okay to fall and slip as long as I pick myself back up. Anyone that knows me, knows that I am not a quitter.

I am going to do this because I deserve it. I am going to do this because I love myself and I strive for goals that are attainable as long as I never lose focus on the dreams and aspirations that I hold for myself.